Mind the Gap: Faith and Doubt

I have nothing really important to share.

I guess I just really want to check in and say: I am still here. I am just in the background struggling with my journey and don't have the courage to share my thoughts.

Anniversaries of important dates have hit me hard and the lack of connection for me, just puts me into a state of: I just don't care. What is the point?

I keep feeling faith and doubt have a lot to play into this, but it is not my own faith and doubts that I feel are holding me down. For those of you that have followed along, my telepathic link to Michael is what I am talking about. He keeps facing his lack of connection to God or the Universe and I am just along for the ride. I have nothing to offer him or anyone else on how to connect to God.

Must be a joke right, your a minister Athena!

No jokes here. I can explain how to do it all day long, but your connection to God is your own, I can't force it to happen in you. Only you can find it. That is what Michael doesn't get. His own feelings, I feel. He feel mine as well and it frustrates him to feel me and my own connection and not be able to connect himself.

I am also struggling with a shift in a path that I have chosen to abandon. I am not abandoning it because I am quitting, but rather because the values it once held for me, no longer align with my beliefs. This realization is hard for me to process because I dedicated a lot of time towards it, only to realize what I thought was true, was not. This has lead to a lot of doubt for me.

I am working on my Book of Shadows Collection still. I made some poor choices in computer programs (#MicrosoftSucks) and I am paying the price for it now. I am getting back on track and I am hoping to finish enough to list them for sale through Patreon soon. Thanks for hanging in there with me. I really want to get this right and not publish something that I will instantly regret. These are not the mass produced Book of Shadows pages you can find on Etsy. These are well curated and accurate, which means they take time to edit and publish. Thank you again for hanging in there.

Athena Rocar

Added Note: I have been working through the list of metal correspondences as I find time and patience. I still want to work on the Elements Series, but have not had the patience to gather up all the materials for it. I have been sick and unable to sit for long periods of time to read or write/type. I am feeling better on the mend. Hopefully after Thanksgiving I will find the peace I need to write those posts.