Reverence: A Journey Beyond Words

*This post is a personal reflection, a glimpse into my spiritual journey that I hope will inspire others to see the divine in their own experiences. Please know that while I document my own path here, it is not meant to be a "cure-all" or a prescriptive guide for anyone else. Our journeys are unique, and each person’s relationship with the divine is personal and different. My intention is simply to share how my experiences have shaped my connection to the divine, in the hope that it might encourage you to recognize and honor your own divine connections in ways that are meaningful to you.

The word reverence has always captivated me. Its origins, tracing back to the Latin word revereri, meaning to stand in awe of, are powerful in their simplicity. Over time, it evolved into revere in English, and eventually became reverence in Middle English. Today, it carries two primary meanings:

• Noun: A deep respect for someone or something.
• Verb: To regard or treat with deep respect.

However, reverence also has older meanings that are not commonly discussed. In the past, reverence could refer to a gesture of respect, like a bow or curtsy. It can also be used as a title for clergy members, as in “His Reverence” or “Your Reverence.”

The title "Reverend," used in Christian traditions, originally developed within the Catholic Church to designate a role deserving of deep respect or reverence. In other spiritual traditions, it is used to honor those who have dedicated their lives to the service of the divine. The word reverence seems to encapsulate both an act of respect and a deep connection with the sacred.

But the question I keep returning to is: Why does this word affect me so much? What is it about reverence that pulls me so strongly? It was during one particular moment, an experience that altered my perspective, that the meaning of reverence became clear to me in a way I will never forget.

If you're unfamiliar with my journey, I am telepathic. I communicate with energies, people, animals, and even inanimate objects. My most profound connection, however, is with a man named Michael, though we share no physical relationship, our bond runs deep, beyond the material world. It is often difficult for those unfamiliar with spiritual connections to understand, but the ability to communicate psychically with others is real. Many spiritual teachers and practitioners acknowledge that people like me can form strong telepathic and energetic connections.

Spiritual relationships differ from traditional ones. They are not based on physical intimacy but instead on the movement of energy and the release of emotions and past wounds or trauma. Michael and I connect in ways that exist beyond this world, in what is often called the 5th Dimension (5D), a realm of consciousness and awareness that is beyond the time and distance associated with our physical world or 3D.

To put it simply: thoughts, emotions, and energies exist in different levels of awareness or frequencies of consciousness. When someone taps into 5D from the physical world, they step beyond the body's limits, gaining access to other realms, timelines, and energies. Many call this astral projection, astral travel, or remote viewing. In this space, Michael and I meet, sometimes through conversations, but other times through a deeper energetic exchange, including sexual energy. Our physical bodies react in unison with our thoughts, emotions, and spiritual states.

So What Does This Have To Do with Reverence?

During one of our spiritual exchanges, we connected deeply in 5D. Michael was on top of me, his shirt covering a golden cross, given to him by his grandmother, and one of only a few things to survive a house fire. As I looked into his eyes, lost in the moment, his necklace slipped from beneath his shirt, swinging gently in front of me.

In that instant something changed. My awareness shifted. The 5D faded, and I found myself in a different state of mind. Michael was gone, and the only thing I could focus on was the swinging cross. A single word rang through my entire being: Reverence.

At that moment, I felt a connection beyond myself. I wasn’t alone. I was supported. Despite the loneliness and uncertainty that often come with spiritual growth, in that moment, I felt seen, heard, and acknowledged by something divine.

But here's the twist: It wasn’t the cross or the Christian faith that triggered this revelation. I am not strictly Christian, I am Pagan. I choose to honor all deities equally. The presence I felt was not exclusive to any one faith. Yet, I struggled with the emotions that followed. I wasn’t comforted; I was confused. Why did this symbol, a simple cross, trigger such a strong sense of connection? Was I truly experiencing something divine, or was it something else?

For months, I had felt abandoned by my spirit guides and disconnected from my own sense of purpose. In that moment, with Michael’s energy, I felt closer to something more sacred than ever before, only to have  it taken away. Michael disappeared, closing himself off, and I was left feeling both devastated and furious. How could something like this so intimate and divine return, only to leave just as fast?

Why the Word Reverence?

I have deep respect for Michael. I understand that I am communicating not with his physical self, but with his higher self, a version of him that exists in the spiritual realm. His human self remains mostly unaware of our connection. He is not spiritually awakened, though on some level, he senses our bond. It’s frustrates me because I long for a real, physical relationship with him, yet I know that he’s not spiritually ready to awaken in this lifetime.

Accepting this truth has not been easy. I have made peace with the fact that a traditional relationship between us is not possible. But  acceptance doesn’t erase the loneliness I feel or the pain of regret over the choices we made in past lives. I wish things had ended differently, yet I also value the connection we still share. More than anything, I fear losing that connection to Michael and to the divine force that brought us together.

And perhaps, therein lies the true meaning of reverence in this context.

The word revere originates from the Latin vereri, meaning “to fear.” The word I heard in that moment, the word that pierced through my very being, was reverence. Perhaps the reason this word was spoken to me was because, in truth, I fear losing the only spiritual connection I have left.

This brings me to an important question: Have I become too attached to my connection with Michael? Did I place so much reliance on this spiritual relationship that I neglected my own connection with the divine?

When that necklace swung free, I felt something greater, something beyond Michael’s energy. But when he pulled away, I felt empty. It was as I had tied my spiritual well-being to him, to his energy, instead of maintaining my own direct link to the divine. In that moment, I questioned myself: Have I put too much faith in this one connection? Have I let it replace my personal connection with the divine that exists within me?

That thought was painful. It forced me to face my own attachment to the relationship, an attachment that may have pulled me away from the connection I once had with the divine itself.

But how does one balance the need for a deep connection with another soul while honoring their own connection to the divine? How do we avoid leaning too much on outside energy and forgetting to maintain our own spiritual foundation? These are questions I am still asking myself.

Perhaps the word reverence was a reminder for me to find balance, to honor not only the connections that others bring to my life, but also to honor the divine presence within myself. As I continue this journey, I’ll have to remember that true reverence is not just about valuing those I connect with spiritually; it’s about nurturing the relationship with the divine within me.

And maybe, just maybe, that is the real meaning of reverence here: to honor all of it, the connections, the transformations, and the wisdom gained through the struggles and revelations that lead us to our true selves, to who we are meant to be.